I just want this all to go away 

everything really just sucks right now. 

i feel like i’m the only one in my entire family that is understanding. everyone is just so quick to judge and I hate it. I feel like i’m so unexposed to things in my family because they think whatever they do is the right ting and if I want to do something different, it’s so so so wrong. honestly I hate it. I just want to go to college, but even that won’t make it better. I don’t want to be apart of them anymore. all they do is treat me like shit and I don’t even feel welcome into the house anymore. this isn’t new though, but whenever I would feel like thing I would go to my Dad’s house and just rant about it because we both hate my family, but I can’t do that anymore. and it sucks fucking balls. all I wanna do is teach them to not be so judging, but even then they make fun of me for trying. I can’t do anything here without feeling judged, and seriously it’s my own family! why should I feel like this in my own household?! they don’t even like to talk about things, they have no emotion. I try to talk to them and to try and be normal, but they’re not even understanding and all they do is yell. Seriously i’m really only talking about my fucking asshole of a “mother” here, but whatever. I want her to know that I seriously think she needs to change the way she lives her life because she is such a bitch all of the time. She doesn’t realize it though because she think she’s the queen of everything because of her controlling and bitchy-ness. I want to say I hate her, but I don’t. But it’s pretty fucking close. get me medicated please

this night is gonna be guuuuuuuud

literally doing all my favorite things to do while high:

-shower

hawks game

-eat mom’s homemade meals

-liquid fusion 

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is it even worth is to live life before falling in love with someone I feel like i’m just waiting and waiting and i’m getting sick of it ugh